Sunday, April 24, 2011

A Belief


At the church we attend, it is common to recite the Apostles' Creed as a part of the service. It’s not something that Derek or I grew up doing but we enjoy it and embrace it.

I believe in God, the Father almighty,
creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord,
who was conceived by the Holy Spirit,
born of the Virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, died, and was buried;
he descended to the dead.
On the third day he rose again;
he ascended into heaven,
he is seated at the right hand of the Father,
and he will come to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the holy catholic Church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,
and the life everlasting.
Amen.

The ritual is different, but the beliefs are the same ones that we’ve both held since childhood. For us there is nothing new here. But the newness of saying them out loud every week has been a good thing for me because of the things that Christians believe are pretty preposterous. For example:

          On the third day he rose again

Saying it out loud forces me to publicly affirm these things that are hard to swallow. And it provides an opportunity for me to think about what these beliefs mean to me.

For me, the resurrection means that evil has been overcome. Without the resurrection, the life of Jesus makes little sense. He lives a perfectly sinless life, performs miracles, preaches about loving God, loving your neighbor and other such goodness. And then he is crucified. It seemed like a crushing defeat for goodness.

I think it's part of our nature is that we like to keep score. I like to keep score. Sometimes I do these stupid calculations to determine whether or not I’m making a difference in the world. For example, I was able to give food to 7 students in need on Thursday, talk with a group of 18 students who face discrimination, and help three students in emotional crisis. But then on my way home from work I heard a story on the radio about civilians killed in Libya. And I chalk the days like that up as a loss. The bad guys won and I’ll try again tomorrow.

But the resurrection reminds me that no matter how the tally looks on a given day, love conquers evil. Jesus’ victory over the grave proves it. It means that we serve a living God, who is busy even now bringing light to darkness and making broken things new. It means that someday he will return and there will be no more crying or pain because all of that will be vanquished.

All of this because on the third day he rose again.

Happy Easter.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Not a Birthday Post

Because a certain someone is embarrassed by birthday related attention, some restrictions were placed on this blog post.


Instead I have chosen to write about the 23th anniversary of the 9th day of my own life. I was just a super chunky baby with cheeks to my shoulders and a ridiculous amount of hair on my head. I probably slept through almost the entire day and I may have even spit up a couple of times. But I'm fairly certain that I didn't cry at all that day. At some point in the afternoon my little baby heart skipped a tiny beat, and I like to think that somehow I just knew. I just knew that my favorite person, my best friend and my greatest love was born that day.


Happy 9th Day of my life, Derek. Thanks for making it and so many since a really great day.



Friday, April 15, 2011

So Much To Learn

Just when I start feeling self congratulatory about being good at this whole marriage thing, I realize I actually have so much to learn. Derek and I have known each other since the 5th grade but this week, we both discovered somethings that made us stop and wonder who in the world we were living with.

On Wednesday, I walked into the living room and asked Derek...
What are you watching?

River Monsters.

Oh. I think that we've already seen this episode.

Nope. It's a new one.

No, baby, we have. This is the one about the giant fish that is eating people.
(long pause)
That is what every episode is about.
Really?
Really. Every episode of River Monsters is about giant fish that eat people. And Derek likes it. And our DVR is set to record every one.

To be fair, on Thursday Derek walked into the living room and asked me... 
What are you watching?
Teen Mom 2: The Unseen Moments.
I thought we watched the finale last week. Isn't the season over?
Yeah, but these are all the clips that didn't make the show.
So, you are watching clips that were deemed not good enough for an already terrible show?
(long pause)
Pretty much.
And I liked it. And I am not ashamed.

We love each other anyway.


Thursday, April 7, 2011

April Deserves Better

Birthdays in elementary school are great. Unless you were born in April.

Every one of my teachers had some sort of birthday bulletin board up in her classroom. The ones I remember looked like this...


It has all the names of the birthday children displayed in fashionable die cuts appropriate for the month. It works really well most of the time. Pumpkins for October...turkeys for November...snowflakes for December..hearts for February. You get the idea.

Yet sandwiched between shamrocks and flowers, there is April. There are no major non-religious holidays in April. Tax day, maybe? April is National IBS Awareness month, but that is not a bulletin board anyone wants to see.

Teachers realize this problem, and yet they must not leave April out. So April looks like this...


Get it? April showers.

I guess it's kind of cute. Unless you are eight and born in April in which case it's TOTALLY OFFENSIVE. Kids hate the rain. It means recess is inside and thunderstorms are kind of scary!

So, I'd like to make an argument for why April deserves better than raindrops, umbrellas and rain-loving ducks.

Why I'm Totally Psyched About April
My birthday
 
Derek's birthday
 
Jesus' Birthday: Part Two
Everybody in our family and their grandma's birthday
 
It's GORGEOUS outside
 
Tax refunds
 
Two three day weekends
 
Earth Day
 
Extra jeans days for TAKS testing
Strawberries are in season
Baseball
Chocolate bunnies
Kites
April is the best month ever! At least in my completely objective opinion.



Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Ms. March: Part Three

I totally skipped posting about my favorite women last week. Packing swimsuits inspired me to bust out my 30 Day Shred DVD. Jillian Michaels is definitely not going to make the list this week.
Tracy Chapman
Singer. Story Teller. Activist.


On poverty...

On violence...

On love...

Why she is great…
Her songs just move me. Her voice is so incredibly beautiful and that she uses her gift to advance social justice just makes me love her more. I love that she has one so many awards and sold millions of albums and never compromised who she is as a person. When my little social worker heart gets tired, (as little social worker hearts sometimes do) this music nourishes me.

Fun fact…
Her first album was released the week I was born. This adds more evidence to my friend’s theory that everyone becomes obsessed with the music they just barely missed.

Tina Fey
Writer. Actor. Funny Lady.

On where she wants to go..
“I want to go to there.”

On romance…
"Lovers.. oh, that word bums me out unless it’s between meat and pizza."

On her worldview…
"Can I share with you my worldview? All of humankind has one thing in common: the sandwich. I believe that all anyone really wants in this life is to sit in peace and eat a sandwich"

Why she is great…
Because she makes me laugh my butt off every week! There are many more reasons to like her, but I think this article explains it better than I can. Enjoy!

Fun fact…
Tina is short for Stamatina.
My Friends

My real favorite women are the ones I am lucky to call friends. From the time I was very young, I have enjoyed deep  friendships with wonderful girls. Now that I work at a high school, I can appreciate how good I had it back then. Strong positive friendships like I grew up with are rare and I really believe it shaped a lot of who I am today. I still think that these girls are the most beautiful, genuine and sweet girls I have ever met.

One of the benefits of being in a long distance relationship in college was having so much time and energy to devote to my friendships. I still call the Frankie ladies “my roommates” when I talk about them and I think that causes some confusion. Derek is my roommate now, but I can’t get comfortable calling them my “friends from college.” It’s just not close enough. The Frankie ladies and my (gulp) friends from college, are so creative, funny, talented and kind. I will love them forever.

 (Since Becka missed the snow day, she gets her own super old pic)
I’ve never had sisters, but in the last five years I’ve gained 4 through marriage. Each one of is dear to me and I love them them all for different reasons. And there is something nice about friends that I’m guaranteed to have in my life until I die.


Yay ladies!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Every 6 Months or 100,000 Miles

Thousands of miles ago, it was my 18th birthday. It was also the morning after our senior prom. Derek and I swung by my parents house so I could change shoes before church. Derek punched in the garage code and we accidentally ruined a surprise my parents had planned.

 

This was sitting in the garage. I was pretty excited, as you can see.




I drove it to Main Street, windows down the whole way. It was the beginning of many adventures.


 

This is the car I loaded up and moved away to college in. I put too many miles on it driving up and down I-35 to visit Derek at OSU. Ryan Adams and mildly speeding one direction. Patsy Cline and quietly sobbing going the other. 

The last time I drove it up there, he asked me to marry him. I had to ride shotgun on the way back because I was on Cloud Nine and therefore unfit to drive. My mom and I pretty much planned the wedding on that drive.

On Friday, this happened.


We passed this milestone as I was driving southbound on I-37 through Atascosa County. We were headed down to Port Aransas for the weekend to celebrate the fact that six months ago, this happened.


As the numbers rolled over, I looked to my right at my sweet husband with our little dog on his lap. I thought about Little Kass and Little Derek in their prom dress and rented tux. I couldn't have imagined then that we would actually end up here. Of course I had hopes. Big expectations about college, new friends that I would make, and someday marrying him. But it all seemed a little too good to ever come true.

I wish I could tell Little Kass that it does. After saying goodbye to Derek, it was my ritual to pull into a gas station, put my forehead on the steering wheel and cry it out. It hurt so bad. I think it would've been easier if Little Kass would have known about these past six months. I wish I could tell her how she and Derek are going to drive that Jeep right up to the ocean, roll down the windows, and eat breakfast tacos. I wish I could tell her how happy she will be.





I know this will not be the last time I sit in my car and think, "How did I get here?" 

Someday, I will  put it in reverse and look over my shoulder and there will be a baby sleeping in a carseat.

Someday, I will notice my first gray hair in the rearview mirror.

Someday, I will notice that hundreds of thousands of more miles have gone by.

I will count a blessing with each one.





Thursday, March 17, 2011

St. Patrick's Day Limericks

I heard that today is St. Patty's Day.
And rhyming games seemed like a fine way
To honor the Saint.
Hope you have no complaint
'Bout the corny things I'm gonna say.
There once were two awkward ninth graders.
With faces so oily and cratered.
He thought she was pretty.
And she found him witty.
They married just eight short years later.

I have a sweet husband named Derek
So great he is almost Homeric.
90 million infinite.
Is how I'd describe it,
If my love for him were numeric.

We have a wee doggie named Maddie.
With our mailman she's often quite chatty.
She loves peanut butter.
JIF makes her heart flutter.
We hope it won't make her a fatty.

It is hard when your nickname is Kass
To write a poem that doesn't sound crass
Avoid jokes and good puns
About fannies and buns
To remain a fine lassie with class.